icon: "bodylove -- me (belly goddess) (a photo of my breasts and belly, covered in colorful marker drawings and glitter)"Dear my belly ( Read more... )

icon: "bodylove -- heart my belly (my bare, stretch-marked belly with my hands making a heart shape in front of it. There is an overlay of blue and violet radiating out from my navel)"
(This is modified from something I wrote to someone who says negative things about their looks -- but it applies even if you only do the 'positive' side of calling ( Read more... )

icon: "overwhelmed (the character Keenan from "Playing By Heart," with hands over their face covering their eyes and head tilted back)"Last Sunday I started to feel a bit off, and by Monday night I was sure -- I was having my second-ever genital herpes outbreak. I went to the clinic on Tuesday and got meds, and honestly while it was somewhat ( Read more... )

icon: "strong (a photo of me in warm light with my hair down around my face, staring intensely into the camera in a defiant mood)"
Talk about dysphoria (social, bodily, etc) in relation to your own gender identity. Do you experience it? If so, how, and what means do you take to fight it? What kind of affects does it have on your mental life? What ( Read more... )

icon: "fish (my fractal "Strange Babies": an abstract glassy sphere missing pieces. At its center are three pink elongated ovals ending in flared yellow)"20th: I dreamed about fish out of water again. This time they were bettas in about 30 champagne flutes that were filled with water-beads, so they could barely survive and couldn't move almost at ( Read more... )

icon: "brewing (a photo of a ceramic mug with sticks of cinnamon poking out and steam rising up)"
As a demisexual, I need to feel some kind of emotional connection with the person for there to even be a chance of sexual attraction. Often this is a connection on the spirit, soul, or heart level, but sometimes it's purely a mental connection in that ( Read more... )

icon: "bodylove -- me (belly) (a photo from 2007 of my breasts, belly, and arms, covered in spirals and drawings made with washable markers and glitter)"
( content warning: possibly triggering for those with disordered eating or eating disorders. talk of restriction, dieting, fat )

icon: "self-love (me, sitting in the crook of the trunk of a large tree, hugging myself and leaning my head back in a relaxed way)"I learned shame about my scent from my biofamily and my first lover (who I was with for 8 years). They complained about my smell, or told me about it in lowered embarrassed voices, and so I washed it off, chemically ( Read more... )

[TW: internalized fatphobia, body talk]I've been dealing with epic insecurity over the past couple days. The two people closest to me right now are getting to know each other better, and for some reason that sets off all this body worry. They're both of average-to-slim build, and have lots of the same positive qualities that I do, so my brain is like, "why would they want you, when they ( Read more... )

[body talk, food talk, size changes]If you ate healthily (as in, 'did not have an eating disorder,' not as in 'ate only salads') and were active when you were 25-26, that's the minimum size of your adult body. Trying to get smaller than that is going to cause your body to suffer. And if you're not yet 26, your body is going to keep on changing because you are not grown up yet. ( Read more... )